Friday, April 25, 2014

Party of 3.

Is she your only one? Are you planning on having another? Is she your youngest?

Our girl is it. We have one. Party of one child in this house.

Was that the plan? No.

"Mommy, why do some people try to have a baby and they just don't get one? Mommy- is it like when I ask Santa for many different things and I don't get everything?" 

M asked me this just the other day.

No one knows your journey. No one knows how scared and excited you were the first time and how the excitement ended too fast.

No one knows how scared we were with you and how we thought we lost you too, but didn't. And are so thankful every day.

No one knows that you could've been an older sister.

But I've found that everything I've asked for in life never comes the way I expected it. It comes to me in a different shape, a different time than I expected, and in a totally different way that I could ever imagine (I.E. Me living in the PNW?!)

Party of 3 is actually pretty awesome and intimate. Party of three is pretty special. Do I crave siblings for our girl? Of course, but that journey is over for us. Is it easy for me to close that door? Never - but it's not bad either if that makes sense. It's bittersweet.

I see so many of M's friends as her family and I hope they will be forever. These two boys pictured here are so dear to our girl. And secretly (okay, not so secretly) I'd adore to have them as sons. They are the sweetest, caring boys ever - and treat our girl so kindly it makes my heart sing.

Family is defined so differently for all of us. We're creating our family of 3 plus 100 more family members. Here's to all of us together.

Thursday, April 3, 2014


Girlfriends are the ones who you play dress up with in the beginning. The ones you show your special doll.

Girlfriends are the people you turn up the music with and belt our your favorite song.

Girlfriends are the ones who teach you how to braid your own hair, apply make up.

Girlfriends make you laugh out loud so badly you have to RUN to the loo; cry so hard you never know what hit you; listen to you so well you'll never let her down.

Girlfriends are the ones who are there for you when family can't be. Give hugs when that's all you need. Share something that you need, want, or just should share.

Girlfriends are the ones who let you complain to but never hold it against you. Never tell you look fat. Girlfriends support you when all the cards are down. Girlfriends push you to run an extra step (or two.)

Girlfriends are the ones who help you hot glue 100 programs; help you make your bouquet; and dance with you all night at your wedding.

Girlfriends are the ones who understand the days that you can't take any more; when you just need a break - but she knows you'll be back tomorrow. And Girlfriends don't judge you for it.

Girlfriends hold your hands when it's really sad and relate when all there is sadness. Girlfriends get it and give it back when it's needed.

Girlfriends have ups and downs; ins and outs. Girlfriends are our Mothers, our Grandmothers, our Aunt, our Sisters, our cousins, our neighbors, our Mommy friends, strangers. Girlfriends are just that and more. Girlfriends give us hope, love, and support.

Mwah to all of mine.